I'm having a difficult time coping with so much loss right now.
A colleague lost his life in a snowmobile accident last weekend and though we weren't particularly close it's really kind of hit me. My 4 younger children's paternal grandfather has cancer and is being treated and just recently we learned that my oldest son's paternal grandfather is terminally ill with no clear expected timeline. We do know that he won't leave the hospital though. It's heartbreaking to see the family suffer as they come to terms with this loss and it makes me cry just thinking about it. This man is so kind and caring and has touched the lives of so many people. It's just not fair. I've lost both my parents, to cancer and alcoholism so I don't cope well with death. I lost another colleague not long ago and I'm dealing with a less than cordial divorce myself. My children have lost the father they once had and that breaks my heart for them too. I feel so helpless right now.
I don't know how to help those around me and at the same time I don't know how to keep myself together. It's overwhelming at times.
Ugh, sorry I just needed to vent a little I guess or say it out loud. I hope that once we make it through all this things will be calm and happy again. How do you get through tough times like this? Grin and bear it?